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Saturday, July 25, 2009

the known vs. unknown

A healthcare professional had stated to me months ago that it was not going to be easy adjusting to my "new" life. He was not kidding! In other words, we as human beings are more comfortable with what we know in our lfe, regardless if we are happy or unhappy. It is familiar to us. Therefore, people stay in unhappy relationships, etc. It is harder to make a change in our lives and take a look at ourselves. It is easier to be miserable. I have found this to be true.

For years, I was unhappy due to various circumstances in my life. I was playing the victim. With a lot of work, I have been able to leave that mentality in the past, but it is not easy! For instance, when things happen in life which are negative, I tend to go back to that way of thinking. But like a computer, our minds can be reprogrammed, and that is what I had to do. I can no longer say "why me"; I just have to move past the obstacle and move on. I never considered myself a happy person, but I have been better since I made some changes in my life. It has not been easy for me, but I knew in the long run I would be better off and I am. Change is scary. It brings with it a whole list of new problems. However, I would rather that than live unhappily, wasting my life and watching the years go by. I no longer wait for life to happen to me. I am an active participant. I don't like watching from the sidelines. I will elaborate more on these changes in the next post.

Friday, July 24, 2009

my introduction

Hello online world. I have been procrastinating writing a blog for years. After I joined a writing group through Meetup.com, it was suggested to me that blogging would be good for practicing my writing skills. So here I am. I do have a blog on a website, but that is for another time. I have been a writer since I was a little girl. My first story was entitled My Brother and I. It is still sitting at my parent's house. It told the story of my brother and myself and how I annoyed him as a child. I wrote this when I was 8 years old. I started journaling when I was 10. I kept multiple journals over the years, and then got away from it. In my 20's I started again, and I have been doing it on and off. One of my goals is to journal daily. I am one of those people who still enjoys putting pen to paper. I still have nothing books and my friend gave me a beautiful empty writing book for my birthday this year. I have an idea for a book but this is a secret for now. I need to keep on writing and keep going to my writing group. There are some published authors there. I have been published locally where I live. But I long for bigger. I want to be able to make a living at writing. This is my passion. Don't we all want to do what we love? After all, who wants to spend their life doing something that makes them miserable? Life is about going after what you want and taking chances, not sitting on the sidelines.